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Well, it has been a long time since I wrote. We thought we had found our birthmother .. but she has backed out. So, we are back!! We are not giving up, not giving in , not looking back .. We hope to find our birthmother very soon. We are so anxious to continue this journey. If you are looking for a very open, loving family for your baby and people who are very real and down to earth with a lot to offer please consider us. We would love to hear from you!

It has been a good week, lots of plans with family and friends ... even fit in another bbq lol Mostly it feels good knowing I have our family and friends to count on. Adoption has its highs and lows, but seeing my family and hearing how much they are hoping and praying for us, always does my heart good. I am surprised how much I have changed in it too. I feel stronger, more determined and very blessed to have this experience. The highs and the lows are a gift and a lesson. So, I have learned .. what is meant will be, enjoy the moment .. always, have faith and you can do anything!

I can't believe it is August already. Where did the summer go?? :) Before we know it .. brrrr lol I wish everyone the best of luck on their journey. Birth families and adoptive families. We are still on our journey .. hoping and praying that before to long our birth mom will find us. I am so ready, willing, hoping, praying , wishing, wanting... :)

Today is a down day ... everyone has them right? Sometimes you find yourself in a moment .. wondering what if??? What if we wait forever? What if, what if what if ....
I don't have those moments often, but when I do I always find my way out and Matt is a wonderful support. ALWAYS there with a hug, or a smile or a joke, or Ten reasons why all is great in the world. In many ways we are opposites, but it works! I am so grateful to have us...

Matt and I are doing better than ever!! I feel so blessed to have him. I know I can, we can .. handle anything that comes our way. We have been enjoying the summer and there have been more that a few bbqs. ;)
I have been working on some ideas for my designs too, I love when I sit at my drawing table and I just get lost. I look up and wonder what happened to the last hour. I love art, I would be lost with out it. I will enjoy all the crafts and painting and messes I can make with our kids. :)

The have all these wonderful Native American crafts, art, jewelry and just fun little things too. We found Native American Pooh and Tigger onesies and couldn't resist.

We went to the Julymsh Pow Wow today. We go every year, it is a tradition in my family. We are Chippewa and I really enjoy learning and sharing these traditions and history with my family. The Entry, riders, dancers and drummers are so wonderful, it is really something to see.

We had a great 4th ... I took some great pics and then our little nephew played with my camera. Now NO pics ... lol We did have a great time and the fireworks were so nice. My mom is like a kid with fireworks. She laughs, claps, yells out .. its great!
Matt and I got in the pool for a bit .. OK WOW THAT WAS COLD!! lol We said we would and we did. lol
Sunday, our friends Sean and Lauren brought their little girl Grace over. She is sooo cute and such a good baby. Matt is so cute with little ones. He was playing with her, teaching her to make silly sounds. She giggled and giggled. He was also singing twinkle twinkle little star ... I think she is a little young to learn that lol

I thought maybe I would include some of the things said about us in our home study. These things were said by friends and family...
- All references recommend Matthew and Dana as adoptive parents.
-They relate extremely well to children and are very gentle, patient and kind.
-Matthew and Dana are very loving and family is very important to them.
-The warmth and caring they show to others and their family and friends is something that is natural to them.
-They share a loving marriage and are not afraid to ask for advice or help.
-Matthew and Dana are kind, patient, understanding and are amazing with children.
We can only imagine how difficult this time is and how impossible this decision must be. We thought we would share words from people who know us, just to shed some more light on us and our life. We hope the best for you in your search. We pray you find the most loving and caring family, and that you find the perfect family for you and your baby.

Matt and I have been talking lately about baby names, and thought it would be fun to start a list. For the boys names, so far, we like : Hunter, Logan, Gage, or Daniel. For Girls , so far, maybe: Ava, Ella, Lily, Delaney, Violet, Sabrina. I know the list will get longer and maybe even change a bit ... and of course we are willing to consider names from the birth family.

We had such a nice weekend. We went baby shopping and went for some really nice walks with Ccino. We found some really wonderful things for the baby. I love to get out and look. My mind wanders to what may be.
I also had to go to the eye doctor today ... wow don't ya love that ? I just love the 1 or 2, 2 or 3 lol It went well. I do wear glasses and sometimes contacts but everything else is good.
Our nephew Sean graduates from high school tomorrow. I can't believe it! I watched him as a baby.. where does the time go? He is a good kid and we are sooo happy for him... Congrats Sean!!

Happy Mothers Day!! Matt and I are going to see Moms today.. and he is making dinner for my Mom. She is a little spoiled :). I do have to admit he is a really good cook. Well, I am sure that is going to be wonderful. The weather is good, what a relief, it was supposed to rain.
Maybe, maybe by next Mothers Day I can celebrate too. :) I wish you all the best!
Dana

Oh my child, child of my heart. There is so much to tell you, where shall I start? I know you're out there, maybe even now. I know God will lead you to me, someway somehow. I may never feel you kick or hear your heartbeat for that first time. But, from the moment that I hold you, there will be no doubt that you are mine. Maybe even now, your birth mom is considering what to do. I can only imagine what she is going through. Maybe she is a child herself, with dreams yet to fulfill. Maybe she is not ready for a little one, but I know she loves you still. I know her heart must be breaking, and at night she cannot sleep. I know if it were possible, it's you she'd want to keep. On the other side, I am waiting here. I can sense her love for you and also her fear. I wish that I could tell her of all the sleepless nights, of all the tests and procedures and the prayers that this time maybe it would be right. I could tell her of all the tears, of all the prayers I've had. Of the times that I felt so lost, of all the times that I've been sad. I can offer a Mom to kiss away the hurt and tuck you in at night. I can offer a Dad to teach you to play ball and how to fly a kite. I can offer a home and a family complete with Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Granny and Grandpa. They are all waiting for you, and loving you from afar. I will share my love with you each and every day. I will tell you of the woman who loved you in every single way. I will make sure that you know just the sacrifice she made. For without this special woman, I would have never had the chance to love you. My dream of being a Mom, would have never come true. So, please if you are out there. Please know I care. I know what a sacrifice you are making and I would never judge you, that would be unfair. I am praying for you even now and please know from the very start. This child will always be a part of you , and a child of my "heart".

I started a scrapbook and journal for the baby months ago .... when we started the adoption process. There are letters from both myself and Matt as well as drawings and photos. I wanted them to know what we have experienced and how we feel all the way through. We would also welcome letters from the birth mother, photos etc.. I feel it so important to cherish every moment , every experience as it is. In the last few years I have lost my brother, my grandma and my dad (last spring). I learned how precious time is , family is and making the most of it all. I am blessed to be so close to family and feel so loved. I am blessed , too, to be on this journey and we can't wait to connect with our birth mother and add to our family.

The weather is so beautiful today ... I spent some time outside with Ccino playing ball. She loves to play with basketballs its the funniest thing. I took some new pictures that I need to get on here. There are some Easter and some of the nursery and some family pics. I will have those on in a day or two. I am so anxious I have to remind myself to be patient. It is exciting after everything to think we can have a family .. I just can't help myself. lol

Well, this week has been something ... Easter Sunday was wonderful!! Matt and I did Easter baskets for my Mom, his Mom, each other, and our nephews.. busy busy, but I love it! Of course we had to color eggs too. We had so much fun. I did go around with colored fingers all day :) We found out my cousin Brandy is pregnant.She just found out today! She has been trying for a while so we are all thrilled. We were teasing how we might have babies close to the same age. She lives across the street from us so how fun is that! Brandy and I have gotten really close, we have so much in common even though she is younger than me. I was so happy when she moved in across the street. It has been nice to be there for each other.

HOPE is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul, And sings the tune without the words, And never stops at all ...
That is the beginning to my favorite poem by Emily Dickinson and I love the way it makes me feel. I love the image in my mind when I read it .. and its how I feel today. I am full of hope and enjoying the beautiful weather we are having here today. I am getting anxious to finish the nursery. We have a really great start; new flooring, new paint ( a soft mint green), new doors, new crib and we have this beautiful rocking chair that belonged to my Uncle. My whole family has been involved ... the rocking chair, some selves from my mom in law, blankets, toys, books, and more. I think they might be as anxious as Matt and me. :)
... is that possible? We are waiting anxiously to find our birth mom, to get to know her, to work together to give this wonderful baby all they deserve.

April Fools!!! .. and it was my uncles birthday today. We had a party for him and most of my family made it so that was nice. Good food, cake and ice cream, and lots of laughs ... smiles We had a good time, sometimes its nice to relax and enjoy.

Our profile was activated today!! We are excited and hopeful to see what happens next. What a wonderful day!!

Today we are working on our profile... almost done! We are so excited to begin this part of our journey!!